Something inside this heart had died.




im left with ss, a maths, e maths, phy, chem wb.

BOO! I LIED TO MYSELF AGAIN.
I DIDNT DO ANY HW.....

NOT EVEN ONE QUESTIONN. SIGH HOWWWW.


IM DEAD.



Love is true when it comes from the heart, not from the mouth.

i thought love has no restrictions?


oh well, Anyway, i got tons of hw to be done.
and im gonna do it now.
after that, im going to post pulau ubin picts.
im planning to finish all the 15 chem essays by today!
And, if can,i'll try to finish up my a maths. im left with logs!
YAYYYYYY.
-.-
gosh. better start workng now! update later :D
hehehe.
byebye.


ytd was a date with my mum. LOL.
watchd drag me to hell.
it was disgusting freaky and scary.

HAHaHa. This actually works! I'm usin my psp to update. haha.

today's a very long day, went pulau ubin! haha. hunt for durians & rambutan. haha. went to the jungle actually. i wore shorts, and so mylegs full of scars. omg la so many bugs and ants. anyway, i almost died thnx to th durian which almost drop on my head.. lol. it was really fun despite the bloodsuckers. haha! i meant mosquitos nt the cullens! haha! super tiring day. but can SOMEONE explain why i cant sleep...
&preston, have a safe trip!
tbc

everything's fine now.
there were ALOT of misunderstandings.
hahaaa,
okay
everything's cleard! :D

ANYWAY.



HAPPY BIRTHDAYY PAPA AND BERNICE.


HAHAHA.

Im happy that many ppl agree with me.
lol.
im seriously not laughing but im smiling.
Jerk, yes jerk.
lol.
im not laughing again. but im smirking.

argh.
fucking irritated.
i think back, and seriously, he's abit like one.
if you're reading this, and wondering why you are one, ask me.

i regretted apologising.
okay, maybe not, cause partly it was my fault.
but, to think again. i regret apologising.

Crying over someone who didnt appreciates me is not worth it.
but, I was kinda useless.
so, is it true? I dont know.

Maybe my frens knew me way better.
It was his loss? I doubt so..

but the fuxking shit is that,
fuxking ppl know how to lie about their feelings.
how do they do it?
I have no idea how.

the fuxking thing that made me hurt like fuxk is how can ppl lie abt their feelings.
I could have ended this up way earlier, but ppl just seem to stop it and wanting to start afresh.

argh.
i dont care what you guys may think, but im just expressing my feelings.

ive been thinking and thinking, i cant get over it as soon as ppl tell me to.


its not just about treating me nicely, its about how honest you are towards me.



i dont know how i do it but, i hadnt been eating well .
atleast it helpd me lose weight..
i was just kidding abt the helping thing.
-.-






lol. okay,
i wanna thank those ppl who helpd me.
you know waht i mean and you know who you are. :D


Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
- rihanna, cry.

ARGH.

i don't know what's with me .


suddenly, i lose interest in everything.

gosh, i just cant accept the fact that living that dream is impossible.
im trying so hard to make it possible.
fuck it.


i think its bad to have a dream..



seriously.




haha, i think ive changed.


ive been getting comments from other ppl too they said ive changed in terms of personality and characteristic.
i can see for myself. but i just dont know how to be the old me already.
everyone's growing up. so am i.
the older we get, the more mature we are.
..






im sorry guys.

Forever&Always - Taylor Swift
told me you loved me
Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
..
'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door
..
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
..
Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure
..
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always



You're Not Sorry- Taylor Swift
All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no












Useless.

our love is like a song, you cant forget it.





yeah. today went to school.
late again.
but who cares.
and sorry jiawei. hehe.







alright. bye
its never impossible to make the impossible possible.